The beach today, yeah the water was pulled up on itself revealing long curving sandbars. I lay down to read, glanced through the grassy windows, and fell asleep. Sun warmed my back and the wind and lapping water blended into a white silence.

Bongo drums woke me up at sunset. I peddled by them on the way home and tried to smile. There's nothing wrong. Why is there so much emptiness?

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I've been trying to call Dave for the past two days, but his cell phone isn't working. His family is moving this weekend too, so his land-line is disconnected. I needed his advice on something decidedly unimportant.

About this time 3 years ago, I fell in love with him. I tried to remember the moment I knew I was in love. It was before I was his girlfriend. The very moment I realized my love, we were at a friend's cabin that clung to the steep shore of a glacier-fed lake. We were playing a drinking game - Truth. No, it was the night before... This night, some people were out on the dock watching for shooting stars and others were grilling thick steaks and corn-on-the-cob. I went up to the attic where 5 sleeping bunks were located. It was dark, black, nothingness, but my mind was all colours. I thought about his hands, his hugs, and his intense attention to me. I then saw how we'd been wrestling on the couch earlier - how much he'd made me laugh and scream in play. I decided there. As if he'd been reading my mind, he came up the ladder in search of me. That's when.