2002-01-22 @ 9:19 p.m.
Break another heart...
The snow has stopped falling.
I went out to the farm for a bit this evening, and it smelled amazing. The frozen ground mixed with the warm sheep barn...
I wish that life weren't so complicated. I wish that I could live a few separate lives all at the same time. There are so many people that I want to LOVE and never look anywhere else... but I am just not sure yet that any of them are truly right for me.
My heart twists yet again. Guilt and pain. I nearly love him. That hug sent me spinning away. Why can't I just throw myself into him?? He must understand that I am really too young for this.
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